Boarding the spaceship to the moon

WARNINg:  ( just to let who ever is reading this know I’ve decided to blog about my break up, blogging helps me find clearity so be aware you might see a plethora of  roller coaster emotions day to day; I pray that this lesson this phase in my life ends with a happy ending, and at the end of this road I am able to love, sing, dance, feel free at ease again Mostly I pray that I learn this lesson and grow from it.)

 

Boarding the spaceship to the moon

I’m on my way to the moon don’t know how long I will be living or visiting Mother Moon, but I pray that the journey is beautiful and I learn from from the teachings and use the lessons in my life accordingly. I was very frightened when I walked up to the spaceship it seemed so big and scary like this big monster that will devour.

My bags are packed with only the essential things.  I was told not to bring any food, only two changes of clothing nothing fancy, but i did bring a pretty dress to put on when I land on the moon just my way of celebrating even though no one else will see it because my space suite will be over it. My bed room is very small only room for one. I hung my bag on the door no closets or drawers to hide things away in.

While walking through the spaceship I noticed there are lots of windows in various shapes and sizes to look through. the bathroom is also small only for taking showers and disposing of waste, not a place you would like to lounge around in.

There is a special room for meditation (prayer room) its simple inside no special decorations just a warm light comfortable room temperature, not too cold like the other rooms of the spaceship, There are more windows in this room than any other room in the spaceship, I imagine it will be beautiful up in space, makes me think about me being the candle held up in the night sky with all the stars surrounding me. Something tells me I will be visiting this room often.

I’ve said all my goodbyes to my close friends and family even to people I haven’t seen or spoke to in a long time. I just randomly came across them on my way to the spaceship. I saw an old lover from Germany in the airport he looked at me and I looked at him, we recognized each other instantly even though its been almost 8 years. While visiting my family in Florida I found out an old friend/lover (yes, I’ve had my share of lovers) was in state. He decided to come see me we spent an evening together talking about life. Truth is we never had a closing like most of my relationships, I found out that he was very special in my life I had a chance to tell him this he also shared his feelings with me as well, it was a beautiful night to finish reading a long old book. It felt good to close it and seal it with a hug. I even got to visit a special town that I would like to one day visit again and if willing I can call it the town I live in and have a home in.  I shall see, for the moment I’m going to focus my journey to the moon.

Well, somehow I’ve managed to dress into my space suite and I can hear the people back at Nasapasa getting ready for count down. My heart is racing and I can feel anxiety, and other feelings that I don’t have a name for moving throughout my body, good thing I brought my prayer beads with me just a little something to calm my nerves and remind me

If God brings you to it, he will bring you through it.