Contemplating……

As I sit and contemplate and thoughts of folks that have come into my life have I figured out why?

 Is it for me to know? 

 orgasm addiction

addiction coffee

caffeine

energy

just thinking about him

i ask why

why

why

i get filled with wild thoughts of

why

So i’m contemplating

yes this blog is not filled with cheer

even though i take myself out of myself and I realize yes I’m happy

even with my situations

I’m alive

I’m living

I’m aksing

I’m striving

I’m smiling

I’m laughing

I am

 

mother

sister

friend

co-worker

lover

daughter

just some labels on a clothes pin that hangs from my clothes from time to time

i contemplate my thoughts and ask

do they make sense?

am I just wasting time thinking about

what is

Zen?

Hahahahaha (makes me laugh out loud)

Birthdays

anniversaries

Parties

Dancing

Dancing a dance to Heal

I question

what is he to me?

Teacher

friend

Brother

Son

Father

Lover

just some labels I decided I won’t put on him

He simply

Is.