My Job is hurting my Heart

I tell myself stop it! stop being so selfish stop complaining, its a blessing to have a job that pays well! Well I am thankful for this job for having money to help my family to live to travel. But all in all I HATE MY JOB AND ITS HURTING MY HEART!

So many would say, “well, leave if it is that bad”! Well, if i leave that means leaving Qatar, leaving my friends, leaving my boyfriend, leaving a life I have outside of my job. It makes me sad thinking about leaving everyone.

But my heart is starting to take over. My mind has put up a battle trying to be LOGIC about all of this.

 

Mind: be financially secured, make sure you know where you want to go after you leave Qatar, you have a big promotion that is approaching are you sure you want to turn that opportunity down? Marie don’t make any mistakes. You know you do not want to return back home to St. Petersburg all that is there are people that are guaranteed to work your nerves and too much sadness.

Now my heart is jumping in

Heart:    mind you have put up this fight too long and i have given you your way for the past two years, now its my turn to have some fun!!! Don’t worry dear, everything is going to be alright. Hasn’t the Lord always taken care of you in all situations?

“Yes”! is my reply

 

Heart:   So why is that you are afraid its time for a change its time for some adventure its time to put your lessons into actions!

Lord help me choose give me the strength to step out on faith!